Envy of the dead
Ashened snow in howling winds
Fearing you’re still alive
And there is noone near
To seek aid or advice
Out of the darkness, into light
Ruins of your dreams emerge
Skeletal dwellings, shadows, twilight
All destroyed, submerged
You cradle a thought
Someone has been saved
Not all souls were lost
Can it be no one remains
Running forth in the greyness of mud
In the hope someone awaits
Then you hear voices afar
Wishing to reach those gates
No strength left to run
Potential survivors to seek
Pain and tears in your eyes
But the chances are bleak
You envy the dead, wish to find
Those death failed to take
Who wander the dead of the earth
Lost in the dark, praying for fate
All you have left is
Envy of the dead
Walked for miles
Nowhere left to tread
All you feel is
Envy of the dead
No more tears left for you to shed
21.10.2024 21:07
All out war
The time for talk is done
Diplomacy has failed
It's war that you begun
With your damned betrayal
Run through the fire
Flames rising higher
Run run run
Die
Now walk through burning fields
The bodies piling high
Explosions of your dreams
Light up the wicked sky
Drown in the fire
Flames rising higher
Run run drown
Die
Your legions broke defence
That's just one battle won
I will spare no expense
And triumph in this war
Run through the fire
Flames rising higher
Run run run
Die
You got an all out war
This what you hoping for?
Now I am at your door
And I will beat you sore
You're rotten to the core
Drain life from every pore
Prepare for all out war
Won't take your shit no more
21.10.2024 21:05
Poisoned mind
You are always right
That you're always wrong
Where do you find
Drugs this strong
How do you achieve
This level of control
Do you even perceive
What it does to the soul
How does this sit
Inside your brain
Does it not collapse
From this eternal strain
How do you stay so blind
Despite all evidence
Within your poisoned mind
It all makes perfect sense
Forever a slave
To the trauma inside
You run and you run
There's nowhere to hide
Nothing sacred
In this mental state
No sanctuary is safe
From your self hate
You can't break the loop
Or rewrite the plot
This dark twisted world
Is all that you got
Drowning in fears
That kill all the joy
You grasp at who's near
To rule and destroy
07.10.2024 21:43
Delete defeat repeat
I walked through fire
To get this far
All still inquire
Just where we are
The truth, the lie
What lives beyond the fear
What hides within
Whenever I get near
It feels I've had
Too much to breathe
The lungs collapse
The pain runs deep
There's no defense
Only defeat
All boundaries drop
Right at your feet
Delete, defeat
Complete retreat
Denounce, devour
And then repeat
Divide and conquer
So they say
What was conjured
Has gone astray
Stuck in a loop
Forever chained
Bound to illusions
Will restrained
The rivers flow
It all feels cheap
Delete the past
All a blank sheet
And start afresh
Like nothing passed
But it was never
Meant to last
07.10.2024 21:42
Beast within
It's like watching you die
You let life pass you by
To do something right
It's you you have to fight
You feel you're not enough
You learn to live rough
You think to succeed
You always have to bleed
Cut off the parts
That are already dead
Not try and revive
It's all in your head
Only the strong
Can admit they were wrong
Accept the pain you know
All you need to win
Is learn to let go
Tear down the beast within
You're in your own way
It's not them it's you
And you're always there
Whatever you do
Running from yourself
Is the reason you lose
Sort out your shit
Get out of the noose
You feel you're losing your grip
The mountain is high
The climb is too steep
And yet you still try
The way you prevail
Is by getting up
Each time that you fall
Whatever the drop
26.09.2024 08:45
Mission Impossible
They said you won't last
Resistance is futile
They nail you to the past
Then call you hostile
You get all the blame
Through no fault of yours
While they bask in fame
Your aggression soars
Well, maybe, just maybe
Stop feeling neglected
It's your life, so live
Direct it, perfect it
Try and look at it
From a different perspective
Mission impossible
Challenge accepted
Mission impossible
Challenge accepted
Learn to let go
A battle that's lost
Sure, you can win
But at what cost?
After all this
you should see clearer
The only worthy opponent
Is there in the mirror
Well, maybe, just maybe
Stop feeling neglected
It's your life, so live
Direct it, perfect it
Try and look at it
From a different perspective
Mission impossible
Challenge accepted
Mission impossible
Challenge accepted
26.07.2024 16:08
Playing with fire
This defies all logic
Breaks all rules
I'm not that crazy
Nor am I a fool
But all these things
Forever left unsaid
Poison my soul
As they fill my head
I know it's wrong
Whichever way you look
But it's so taboo
It got me hooked
on you
I can't stay away from you
Deadly dangerous game
Driving all I do
And yet I still play
Playing with fire
It's never my turn
Make one wrong move
And you will burn
You're not my type
But I don't care
Pretend I'm in control
In the demon's lair
I can't believe
I entertain this thought
And feel elated
Not distraught
I know it's wrong
Whichever way you look
But it's so taboo
It got me hooked
on you
I can't stay away from you
Deadly dangerous game
Driving all I do
And yet I still play
Playing with fire
It's never my turn
Make one wrong move
And you will burn
Ask who will win
The right or wrong?
It's still a sin
If it lingers too long
Need to tear it out
And yet I pause
It grips me
With its evil claws
I know it's wrong
Whichever way you look
But it's so taboo
It got me hooked
on you
I can't stay away from you
Deadly dangerous game
Driving all I do
And yet I still play
Playing with fire
It's never my turn
Make one wrong move
And you will burn
26.07.2024 00:25
Planet of the Dead
Cold stars shine
In the abyss above
Space expands
There's nothing beyond
The tides will flow to wipe us off
Meteorites will break this rock
The Sun will burn us into ash
Nature rises in backlash
Take what you can and take it now
Before this planet takes you down
There's no future
on this Earth
We are dying
since our birth
To our eternal doom and dread
We tread
Upon the Planet of the Dead
Everything you fear is false
Conspiracies of man or ghosts
It will not be our demise
Our destruction closer lies
What kills us is the world around
Nowhere to run from Nature's hounds
Once the shattered ground is torn
Lightnings from the depths are born
Take what you can and take it now
Before this planet takes you down
There's no future
on this Earth
We are dying
since our birth
To our eternal doom and dread
We tread
Upon the Planet of the Dead
26.07.2024 00:22
Random ballad
Washed out on an empty shore
And hanging by a thread
Wearing my broken heart like a crown of thorns
This love left me for dead
You take no prisoners, my dear
My soul crushed and my heart shattered
Seems I have nothing left to fear
Now all the worst has happened
You have destroyed the good in me
Left ruins of our love
And yet sometimes I still believe
There is a way back
And as I stare
Into this abyss of despair
There is nothing left to repair
Or even left to rust
You turned it all to dust
What have we done?
How could we break
The very essence of our faith?
You changed our trust
To a lair of pain
What is it that you had to gain?
So here I am at the lonely shore
I'm standing on the line
At this point I'm unsure
If I cross to the other side
26.07.2024 00:19
Sticks and stones
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But arguments amuse me
Don't trip over your own feet
Trying to abuse me
Sticks and stones may break my bones
Feelings just annoy me
Complicated evil things
Trying to destroy me
Sticks and stones may break my bones
Words - they just excite me
Hell, you throw my patience out
But you will lose despite me
Run in circles if you must
Jumping up and down
Spitting venom in disgust
Trying not to drown
Shout and scream, and scream and shout
Bite me baby bite me
No first place in roundabouts
You can't win to spite me
26.07.2024 00:17
Flaming June
Dirty bar, the usual crowd
We're up on stage, It's all going down
Tonight seemed like any other night
And then the door blows open wide
Her hair was like fire
Peircing eyes of steel
What a breath of fresh air
In this den of sin
Angel or demon
Sinner or saint
There's no way to tell
But I just can't wait
She makes me wait
For the darkness and music
To take over the night
Behold Flaming June
With the devil inside
Follow her into a maze
Of hedges pure green
Lost in the purple haze
Of this surreal dream
Why does it feel
Like both love and hate
This can't be real
The possibility faint
Angel or demon
Sinner or saint
There's no way to tell
But I just can't wait
She makes me wait
For the darkness and music
To take over the night
Behold Flaming June
With the devil inside
Running through the maze
Walls closing in
Only my bloody footsteps
To show where I've been
Went through space and time
To the garden of delight
Where maidens in their prime
In rapture bloom at night
Angel or demon
Sinner or saint
There's no way to tell
But I just can't wait
She makes me wait
For the darkness and music
To take over the light
Behold my Flaming June
Find the devil inside
26.07.2024 00:11
New Moon
The bloody sunset takes the light
The dusk is dying in the night
The fog fades in the trees all black
Desire boils, no turning back
Yearning for a new embrace
The goddess of the moon I chase
I crave fresh blood
She makes me wait
A maiden dancing in the light
Is she a demon or the night?
New moon is rising
Clouds disperse
She moans
And I'm about to burst
It's not the flesh I hunger for
New energy that makes me soar
The wonders of delight revealed
I wander through, it feels surreal
This darkened path
Where does it lead
The forest thick
With blackened trees
I know tomorrow we shall part
Life is a neverending hunt
Who is the hunted? She or I?
The darkness fades with dying sigh
A maiden dancing in the light
Is she a demon or the night?
New moon is rising
Clouds disperse
She moans
And I'm about to burst
It's not the flesh I hunger for
New energy that makes me soar
The wonders of delight revealed
I wander through, it feels surreal
25.07.2024 00:13
Summer snow
The land of make belief
Meets brutal hostile truth
When all you want is dreams
But all you get is proof
That all reality is pain
In doom I rest assured
The sordid visions in my brain
Corrupting and impure
In the temple we shall wait
For the frail hands of fates
To twist and weave our epic fails
Into their dark and woeful tales
How could I not forsee
This storm of freezing cold
The signs were right in front of me
That I chose to ignore
The deadly signs of summer snow
The clock has stopped for me
I tore off all the hands
But it won't stop for long
I hear the blowing sands
Running through closing doors
I'm trying to beat time
Behind I hear the blizzard roar
The bells of ice, they chime
In the temple we shall wait
For the frail hands of fates
To twist and weave our epic fails
Into their dark and woeful tales
How could I not forsee
This storm of freezing cold
The signs were right in front of me
That I chose to ignore
The deadly signs of summer snow
25.07.2024 00:10
Into the storm
We sleepwalk through life
Avoiding all feeling
At night we are restless
As all has a cost
We throw those we love
Into the deep end
As those who are close
Can hurt us the most
The crash of the waves
The deeper I plunder
And thrust to the hault
Can't hear my own voice
Riding into the storm
The cradle of thunder
The lightning bolt
My weapon of choice
We dwell in the past
And look to the future
The present is vast
Yet often ignored
All dreams we forfeit
When striving for nurture
The rules we obey
We end up so bored
The crash of the waves
The deeper I plunder
And thrust to the hault
Can't hear my own voice
Riding into the storm
The cradle of thunder
The lightning bolt
My weapon of choice
The wrath of the tempest
Releasing its force
Upon us, mere mortals
It has no remorse
I call out your name
When I'm down to the core
It swallows me whole
Till I am no more
25.07.2024 00:09
Stay dead
Those moments you felt alive
Are coming back to your mind
Why did you let them drive
How could you be so blind
Now you know you got it bad
Lose your heart or your head
The feeling you just can't win
It burns under your skin
Now you complain you're enslaved
You've dug your own grave
You've died too many times before
Why did you try once more
Too many skins have been shed
Maybe this time you'll stay dead
You forgive but not forget
Wishing that was reversed
Was it something you said
When you last conversed
No phoenix rising from the ash
What did you get instead
Some ugly thing from the past
Just grown another head
Now you complain you're enslaved
You've dug your own grave
You've died too many times before
Why did you try once more
Too many skins have been shed
Maybe this time you'll stay dead
It is beyond any doubt
All dirty secrets come out
So hope you're prepared
For the tempest ahead
Those moments you felt alive
Are coming back to your mind
Why did you let them drive
How could you be so blind
You've done this all before
Yet you came back for more
After all the lies you've been fed
You should have stayed dead
25.07.2024 00:07
Just let it die
The autumn leaves
Fall dead and dry
The rains distort
The grey of sky
All nature goes
Into decay
This thing we had
It starts to fray
Nothing lasts forever
It's now or never
No point to beg
No point to cry
When it's all over
Let it die
Just let it die
The old clock stopped
Our time ran out
There's nothing you can do
But shout
So were we doomed
Was it bad luck
The questions fly
Who gives a f
It's not worth the tears
All you fear is fear
No point to beg
No point to cry
You know it's over
Let it die
Just let it die
There's nothing left
An empty room
We've been and gone
It's all too soon
You say you're lost
I say unchained
Where you see doubt
I see freedom reign
Let go of guilt
Embrace the pain
When all is lost
There's more to gain
No point to beg
No point to cry
When it's all over
Let it f'ing die
Just let it die
25.07.2024 00:06
Blood from stone
Every time you stumble and fall.
Every time you mumble and crawl.
Who's there to bring you inside?
You think I have nothing to do?
When death's right hand is after you
Nothing I do will do
With you
It's always too late
Always like blood from stone
I try and try
But can't atone
For all those lies
Feels like nothing
I could take in stride
When I think of you
I'm dead inside
6 o'clock, the door is open
How to feel when
Death's right hand
Is after you
Nothing I do will do
With you
It's always too late
Always like blood from stone
I try and try
But can't atone
For all those lies
Sunrise comes too quick
Body shattered
Feeling so sick
I'm all alone in my head
I wish I were dead
Thanks to you
Nothing I do will do
With you
You go and leave the pain
Always like blood from stone
I try and try
But can't atone
For all those lies
25.07.2024 00:03
Evil in you
You'll go to heaven
When you're dead
You really want
this life to end?
They try so hard
to clip our wings
Try to embrace
The hurt it brings
You say you know
Not what you do
Evil has got hold of you
You wrap yourself inside a lie
You realised too late
The evil in you sealed your fate
You say you felt
The hand of God
But why then do you
Feel so bound?
You say your freedom
Lies in faith
And that in life
You have to wait
You think you know
Where we go when we die
How can you be sure
You think you will
Get paradise
For all that you endure
You say you know
Not what you do
Evil has got hold of you
You wrap yourself inside a lie
You realised too late
The evil in you sealed your fate
24.07.2024 23:57
Dead inside
Why do I feel this rage
I'm beating on a wall
I'm living in a cage
With bars of solid gold
Yet I still hold
I must have been too good
I've not a single vice
But when I'm in a mood
My mind is some device
I'm compromised
I'm losing my passion
I blown out my drive
I'm frozen and fractured
So burn me alive
I feel dead inside
Deep into the darkness
Of my blackened soul
Bloody, torn and heartless
Gripping at control
Wish my mind leaves me
Source of all my pain
Poisoning my thoughts
I'm struggling in vain
No switch on my brain
I'm losing my passion
I blown out my drive
I'm frozen and fractured
So burn me alive
I feel dead inside
I needed something raw
I needed something real
I needed something painful
To make sure I still feel
24.07.2024 23:55
Calling my rage
Breaking my routine
Clawing out the time
Nightmare of a dream
Too much on the line
I don't feel the fear
Just going deranged
The end has to be near
I need to disengage
Call, call, calling my rage
Break this sweet poisoned cage
I call on my rage
To find the strength inside
To leave the circus stage
Chains are getting tigther
My mind is far away
I've always been a fighter
But weakness found a way
I let myself believe
A lie that felt so good
And now I have to live
With the cold hard truth
Call, call, calling my rage
Break this sweet poisoned cage
I call on my rage
To find the strength inside
To leave the circus stage
Restore my broken pride
Chain-smoking in the dust
As the demons dance
Around the flames of lust
I hope there's still a chance
I call on my rage
To find the strength inside
To leave the circus stage
Restore my broken pride
24.07.2024 23:53
Put me in hell
I know when all is said and done
You knew me then
You know me now
Nothing but dying is easy
So this is what you chose to do
You paid the price, I pay it too
You had to win somewhere
Now we're night and day
Until the dawn breaks night
Until the dark turns light
Until I break away
Until I stop the pain
The days are long
But nights are worse
I wait for sleep
But now I'm cursed
Wishing a storm
But skies are still
The cold moon shines upon dark hills
The silence is defeaning
Until the dawn breaks night
Until the dark turns light
Until I break away
Until I stop the pain
You broke my life, led me astray
You said you'll haunt me - so haunt away
Wake up and break out
From this prison cell
You trapped me too well
You put me in hell
You broke my life, led me astray
You said you'll haunt me - so haunt away
Wake up and break out
From this prison cell
You trapped me too well
You put me in hell
24.07.2024 23:51
Trapped in darkness
Trapped in darkness
Maybe now you'll have to change
Repent the sins of the past
Or just fade away
Trapped in darkness
Set me free
From the curse you gave to me
Deliver me onto myself
The brightness of the Southern sun
Was not enough for you
I guess the same goes for your son
You left just like you always do
Trapped in darkness
Or just fade away
Trapped in darkness
Deliver me onto myself
I wish I could blame you
For everything that's going wrong
But deep inside of me I know
This is what has kept me strong
Trapped in darkness
Or just fade away
Trapped in darkness
Deliver me onto myself
You'll never ask
But I will say
I'll forgive you one day
Just not today
Trapped in darkness
Maybe now you'll have to change
Repent the sins of the past
Or just fade away
Trapped in darkness
Set me free
From the curse you gave to me
Deliver me onto myself
24.07.2024 23:49
Time to choose
In these times of carnage and deceit
When even winning feels like it's defeat
Do not bow down or
you'll never stand up straight again
choose - tell the truth
or forever pretend
Stay down or rise
Bow down or die
What will it be
Will you pray for me
Rise or die
The time has come to choose
Decide to win or lose
The freedom is with you
Your choice to see what's true
The right you must defend
Your choice to lie and bend
Or rise for truth and die
Which do you choose and why
What choice? - I hear you say
Well it's always there
Even if you can't have your way
Your truth you have to bear
Or bury deep your soul
Which won't recover whole
You need to decide
where you want to go
Do you run in place
Is it just a waste of time
The time has come to choose
Decide to win or lose
The freedom is with you
Your choice to see what's true
The right you must defend
Your choice to lie and bend
Or rise for truth and die
Which do you choose and why
24.07.2024 23:47